Chapter 243 The Mystery
Chapter 243 The Mystery
Everything had become mysteries, but today's party had to remind people of their previous sentimental relationship. The end of reunion after long time of separation always make people feel sadder.
Sara really wanted to go up and hug Jacob, but she couldn't break the atmosphere at this moment. So she just sat aside and watched him proposing toasts to each of them.
Sometimes when a group of people were gathering together, everyone would feel that there was still a lot of time left for them to spend together. But before long, they would understood that no feast would last forever.
Time might be endless, but everyone's life was limited. The number of people one could know in his or her limited life was naturally limited. That's why everyone was so sad.
The heroic words had been broken by the reality. One may wanted to conquer the world at the age, but he or she are more likely to indulge him or herself in mediocre life. Those who were determined to guide the society ended up as a gear in the huge machine of the society.
All these dreams finally became bubbles that burst silently. And almost everyone had known and accepted this fact. However, it's already lucky for them to see those who had been bragged with them. After all, they had been chasing their unrealistic dreams together before.
Sean sat dejectedly in the corner of the room. He might be the one who had the least words at the party. His ideal had already been shattered by the reality. Even if he was still a warm-hearted person, his original passion was no longer there.
He was also the most confused person among all the people present. The reality can be a harsh educator sometimes. Under its education, Sean was no longer that talkative person anymore.
Sara had already noticed that Sean was sitting alone in the corner. Everyone was talking happily, making his solitude even more miserable.
Sara sat next to Sean, who was like an onlooker of the scene.
With a glass of wine in her hand, Sara came close to Sean, only then did Sean noticed her.
"Sara." He seemed a little surprised. He didn't expect that someone would notice him. Of course, the fewer people noticing him, the better the situation would be.
"Well, why are you sitting here alone? Don't you want to talk to your classmates?" There was no emotion in Sara's voice. She sounded neither enthusiastic nor cold, more like stating an objective fact.
"Jollification was theirs." Sean lowered his head. His expression was vague in the dim light.
"And you have nothing?" Sara was confused. This sentence was so familiar, but she couldn't remember where it came from.
"Ha ha, you are so humorous." Sean let out a hollow laugh. Although he didn't have much communication with his classmates, he was not regret coming to the party. But as a top student in his class, he still unwilling to admit his failure to his classmates.
In fact, he was not a loser. He was just on the way to become a successful person. Sean glanced at Sara and began to talk with Sara.
"I used to be a straight-A student, but now I'm not doing well in the society." It seemed that Sean had never admitted this in front of others. Even if no one would make comparisons of their living standards before classmates, there were always people who would compare it secretly.
And in Sean's mind, as a loser, he was unwilling to accept such comparisons. So he said almost nothing in the party.
"How poor are you now?" Shaking the glass in her hand, Sara thought it was really improper if she don't drink any wine in such situation.
"Worse than most people, I think. I was fired by the company and opened a small bar. It made me understand that sometimes hard work is not enough to make me successful. " A trace of sadness flashed through Sean's eyes.
Perhaps someone could understand the feeling of Sean after what had happened to him. But more people would simply see him as a loser. Sean didn't want to take the risk of been despised. So he didn't want others to know his situation even if they might understand him.
"At least you have a bar, right?" After thinking about what had happened to herself, Sara didn't think she was really unfortunate. How could Sean be so pessimistic?
"But..." Sean hesitated for a while and didn't continue. Maybe he was just trying to keep his last dignity
"But what?" Looking at Sean in confusion, Sara wondered what kind of monster life was that could make such a man retreat.
"But my bar was opened with the help of Jacob." Lowering his head, Sean felt that he shouldn't have come to the party today.
"It proves that you still have friends, isn't it a good thing?" Sara smiled brightly. She could always see the positive side of life. Maybe it's this ability that helped her get though all the miserable times in her life and finally get the happiness she wanted.
Sara always believe that the hard time wouldn't last long. Only the strong people could survive to see the bright future.
"You… Do you really think so? " Sean's eyes widened in disbelief. When he grew up, Sean found that people around him were living good lives. They were all as shining as beacons. Yet none of the beacons would be willing to show him the way to the bright future.
"Yes, that's exactly what I think." Sara's relaxed tone almost pierced through Sean's heart, and awakened him in an instant.
Sean had never thought of things in such a positive way. He suddenly felt that he was too narrow- minded in the past. When he encountered too many setbacks, it was natural for him to feel that he was too weak to create a better life.
But today, Sean seemed to come to a new life after hearing Sara's word. He sighed, thinking that Jacob was really lucky to have Jacob as his wife.
"Sara, I propose the toast to you." A smile climbed up on Sean's face. It was not exaggerated to say that Sara just acted as the beacon in his life who showed him the direction in the life.
"Thanks. Just try to think from the positive side and your will live a happier life. " With her head tilted to one side, Sara made a summarize.
"I always wanted to be the first. I used to be the first in exams in my class. So I hope that I could be the first to find a good job." Squinting slightly, Sean expressed his ambitions.
"But later I found that I couldn't be the first one anymore. Because there were many things in life that could not be compared. For example, what kind of work could be ranked as the first job? After all, there is no such job that was higher than the others. "
Sean laughed, as if mocking himself at his naive idea. We could be ambitious dreamers when we were young. However, as adults, we need to be more realistic.Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
After all, we couldn't support ourselves and our families just by our ambition. Only a very small number of people could realize their ambitions. That's why they were regarded as the ones favored by God.
Sara listened quietly to Sean's words. To him, she was just a stranger who would forget everything as soon as they separated. So he didn't have any psychological burden to tell her all of his thought.
"For a long time, I didn't know what I was pursuing. It's not money. I know that I can never have enough money. It's not dream as I don't even know what my dream was. "
Sean gulped down a mouthful of beer. He didn't believe that one could forget his troubles when he was drunk. He just wanted to do something to make himself look relaxed at this moment.
After all, he was a little nervous to say these words. It could be difficult to speak out one's heart. He still needed some time to calm himself down.
Sara acted as a good listener. In such an occasion, the best thing to do was silently wait for him to finish his words.
"Later, I find that simply living in this world makes me happy. Feeling happy is the most important thing in my life. The greedier one was, the more worried he would become. For more wealth, people would plunder the others. For ambition, people will forget to be kind. "
Squinting slightly, Sean looked at the familiar yet strange college classmates in front of him. There were always some people who would remember their original aspiration, but Sean seemed to forget it for a long time.
"Do you know how difficult it is for me to feel happy after I grow up? When I was a child, I could be satisfied by a candy, a toy, and a game. But when I grow up, my ambition and desire kept growing. Even if finally get everything I wanted, I won't feel happy. "
Sean shook his glass and didn't want to drink any more. He didn't feel much better after the liquid flew into his stomach just now. Instead, he regretted drinking so much wine in one breath.
Looking at the crowd in a daze, Sara wondered how they would feel if he said these words to his classmates? Maybe these words could only be said to an onlooker like her.
However, his words were really touching for her. After growing up, everyone became greedy, and no one would even dissimulate it. We wouldn't blame others to be greedy as we believed that it was reasonable to be greedy.
We had seldom thought if being greedy was really good.