Through the Screen

Chapter 100

there is silence tracing the air around them, weaving through heavy breaths, accompanying the gentle Upstodatee from Novel(D)ra/m/a.O(r)g

rubs against abel 's back, and dissolving in the tears that escape abel 's closed eyes and stain noah's

jumper. it's all silence.

noah stands there with his lips pursed, his palms pressing flat against abel 's clothed back to pull him

closer and comfort him at the same time, his nose buried in abel 's unruly hair and his eyes focusing on

nothing in particular. his chest is rapidly filling with warmth with the way abel 's blunt fingernails dig into

his shoulders and his face presses impossibly close against the skin of his neck, and even though the

rational side of him knows its wrong—he has no will to pull away.

"abel?" noah attempts to loosen his grip slightly just like he has done three other times, but abel

refuses yet again, shuffling closer and whimpering pathetically and digging his nails harder into noah's

jumper to stop him from pulling away.

"please," abel 's voice is laced with heartbreak and desperation and noah sighs into his hair before

rubbing his hands along the curve of abel 's back and firmly pushing abel off him.

"noah plea—"

"sh, let's sit you down alright?" noah lets his fingers wind through the front of abel 's hair to push them

off his forehead, both his hands moving to cup abel 's cheeks so he can wipe the tears that are

glistening the soft skin.

abel just nods meekly, inferiorly grabbing noah's hand and gripping it tightly between his fingers and

noah bites his lip before giving in, pulling abel to the bench he was previously sat at, both of them

sitting down closer than necessary and abel 's arms going around noah's waist almost immediately, his

head nudging back against noah's neck as he cuddles into him for the much needed comfort.

"this is not right," noah mumbles after a few minutes and abel 's eyes fall shut at the hostile tone in

noah's voice.

"i-i know, i'm sorry," abel apologises but doesn't pull away, selfishly hoping for the familiarity of noah's

arms to last longer.

"it's not your fault i just—i just don't want to—" noah stutters and abel reluctantly leaves his side for a

brief moment, wiping his cheeks with the sleeves of noah's jacket that he's wearing and staring at him

in confusion.

"don't want to what?"

"i don't want to give you false hope," noah mutters finally and abel just draws his lower lip between his

teeth, chewing on the flesh harshly so he can stop himself from saying something irrational.

"i-i don't know how to handle this, this situation that you've brought upon us abel. i want to be with you,

of course i do because i have never imagined life without you but this—i don't know how to deal with

this, to get past this and i'm sorry," abel doesn't want to hear this, this vague bullshit apology about how

noah can't be with him anymore and it makes an unfamiliar anger surge through him, his cheeks

flushing and his fingers bunching up the material of noah's jacket into tight fists.

"you can't do this noah," abel 's words sound too controlled and his breathing is too ragged but noah

doesn't take notice. he just looks away from abel and purses his lips.

"i'm sorry,"

"what do you mean you are sorry? so this is it then? you're leaving me? did you ever even think why i

did what i did?" abel loses the little control he had on himself, getting off the bench and pacing back

and forth in front of noah, his shoes flattening the soft grass underneath as he walks in uncoordinated

steps.

"y-you, fuck you noah! if it wasn't for you, if you hadn't—fuck!" abel doesn't know what he's saying. he

is so overwhelmed with the situation, with the decision noah has made—he can't even begin to imagine

how abnormal his life would be without him and adrian.

"don't you dare blame this on me now," noah warns, his voice low and intimidating as he gets on his

feet as well and abel just scowls at him, walking over to him and pushing harshly against his chest,

causing noah to stumble just slightly.

"and why shouldn't i? you think i don't know how you wanted to bring chris' friend home? to our

apartment?" abel screams, his eyes ablaze with a challenging look and noah clenches his jaw, looking

away from the intensity of the brunet's gaze and running his fingers through the front of his hair.

"i was drunk," noah states dismissively, and abel snickers, taking a step forward, his height towering

over noah just slightly, their chests almost touching.

"you are just as wrong as i am, noah," abel jabs a finger against noah's chest harshly and noah glares

at him, opening his mouth to respond but closing it once abel cuts him off. "you know you would have

slept with him, you offered him to come to our apartment didn't you?"

"i'm not like you," noah raises his voice, pushing abel back to create some distance between them.

"the only reason i slept with chris was because i thought you were cheating on me!" abel screams,

somehow walking towards noah again to the point where there is barely any space between them and

noah rolls his eyes ignorantly.

"sure, i know you like him abel, just fucking admit it and stop ruining my life," noah spits, turning on his

heel to leave the park so they don't cause any scene or continue this argument further but before noah

can go very far, abel is grabbing his arm and pulling him back.

"where the hell are you going now?" abel pushes against noah's chest once again. "you know you're

lying, you're a fucking cheater and you're not loyal in this relationship either," abel 's voice is loud and

his tone is accusing and noah grits his teeth in annoyance before he grabs abel 's jaw tightly between

his fingers and pushes him against the nearest tree, abel 's head contacting with the flaky material of

the bark harshly.

"what did you just say?" noah spits, their faces dangerously and unhealthily close and abel puffs out a

heavy breath, struggling to speak through the death grip noah has on his jaw.

"i said what the truth is," abel 's tone is just as harsh. "you're a fucking liar, and a fucking cheater and

—"

noah tightens his hold, his fingers slipping down from abel 's jaw to cup around his neck and abel 's

cheeks flush at the gesture, his breath hitching slightly in his throat. noah steps closer, their chests

touching as he brings his lips to the younger's ear, words flowing out in a harsh whisper of hot breath

and anger.

"and who are you to say that when you've been a fucking slut?"