Slaved To The Alpha

“Come on! Come on!” I shouted into the night sky, and it felt like I was able to get out some of my emotions that built up over the time that I just kept them inside. I was feeling a little emotional. I really felt like I needed this. I really needed it tonight.

If not, the emotions that were building up inside of me would’ve burst out without warning, and that’s something I do not want to happen because I might be talking to someone important or maybe just someone very close to me, like my mother. I don’t want to let my anger affect any of my emotions on any unsuspecting victims. I guess this could also be the reason why I have been so stressed out lately. I’m usually laid back and just don’t care about anything.

But I found myself lately to be more caring, more worried about things that I won’t like to happen. I began overthinking about the most improbable things to happen, and I started getting anxious about things that weren’t even related to me. Is this a new phase? Hopefully, this is just a phase. I don’t want to be like this all of the time.

A half an hour or so had passed. I was sure enough that I had cooled down, that I wasn’t stressed anymore. This was great for me because I felt like my energy had been renewed, even without sleeping yet. It was almost past midnight, but I still wasn’t feeling sleepy. Rather, I felt like I could run the world over and over again. I was pumped up.

The conversation I had with Krisna earlier did stick in my mind. I made her cry because I stuck to what I believed. Honestly, I should’ve also tried to understand her side, and I might think that fate is all fairytales, that it’s not real. But she believes that it is real, that when two of us are bound by fate, there is no way to escape on it, no matter what we do.

She might not have convinced my mind, but it doesn’t mean that it isn’t real. I’ll know fate is real when we actually do come back to each other every time both of us lose each other.

I think it was time to finally come down. I still need to go back home. My mother might be waiting for me again. I don’t know what’s with women and waiting for their loved ones. Like they really won’t sleep until everyone is home, at least that’s my experience with the women I live with. Maybe it’s different in other places, and I may be wrong, though.

The walk from where I was back home was quite far, and I never thought that I went this far while Krisna was chasing me. She really knows how to chase someone, and she won’t stop until she gets what she wants, huh. I guess she is determined to her beliefs. Hopefully, she isn’t determined that she and I would still end up together. I can’t handle that right now. I just need to handle the Annual pack gathering preparation situation first before dealing with something more important again.

I was finally near the house, and I was already imagining sleeping in my soft and comfortable bed. The adrenaline rush I had earlier went away. I guess that’s why I didn’t feel tired even though I barely had any sleep last night.

That should come in handy somewhere, maybe not here, but somewhere. I was about to open the front door when suddenly someone whistled.

“Grant!” They said in an alluring tone of voice.

It was a woman’s voice. I didn’t want to turn around because I didn’t want any more problems tonight. “Grant! Turn around!” The voice said it’s like it was luring me to trouble and stress. I wanted to just go inside without looking back and just locking the doors behind me. But then she started to come closer, and I didn’t know who it was since I couldn’t tell by their scent. I think my nose is broken or something. I can’t even smell her scent, and I know that she isn’t Krisna because their voices are nothing alike.

This woman’s voice is more of a child-like voice. It is high-pitched toned and actually quite annoying to listen to for hours. “Grant! Are you going to turn around, or am I going to have to come to you?” She said in an alluring tone of voice, what is wrong with her? How could she even stand to flirt right now? It’s the middle of the night. Whoever this is, she should be asleep, as am I.

I wanted to rest, but I just turned around to see who it was since it looked like she wasn’t going anywhere anytime soon, even if I did go inside and close the door.

To my surprise, it was Mabelle, and I had never noticed how annoying her voice was actually. I thought it was some child crushing on me or something, a good thing it was only her. “Mabelle? What do you want? Can’t you see I’m about to go to sleep? So why are you even awake right now?”

She just smiled and chuckled. “Oh, why are you so grumpy? Can’t I visit my boyfriend?” She said in an alluring tone of voice with no hesitation at all. Is she for real? We broke up, that’s it.

“Boyfriend? You forgot the ex, hon.” I said in a sarcastic tone of voice, and two can play at that game. I wasn’t feeling sluggish anymore. Somehow, my energy came back again, but I wasn’t running, so it wasn’t adrenaline. It must be something else.

“Oh, sorry, I tend to do that sometimes. Anyway, I’m here to talk.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from her. Why is she even chasing me? I don’t like her anymore. “Talk about what?”

“US! What else?” She started to get a little furious, and I didn’t even do anything. She was the one who started everything by going here in the first place.

I just laughed and chuckled. I moved closer to her. “Look Mabelle, Us? That’s gone, poof, gone to oblivion. And that’s not coming back! Ever!” I made sure to emphasize that we are never getting back together. Hopefully, she got the message because I really do not want to get back on that subject.

I didn’t talk any. Further, I just turned around and was about to go back inside when she suddenly grabbed hold of my hand and wouldn’t let go. I thought I was finally clear since I made it known to her that I did not like her that way anymore. Of course, we could still stay as friends since we still had history, but pass that? That’s something that won’t happen, ever.

“What do you mean by ”That’s not coming back?”. Are you telling us, “That’s never going to come back?” She said in a frantic tone of voice. I think that she is starting to get desperate. I don’t know what to do with her, and we don’t share the same feelings anymore.

“I said no, Mabelle, we are not getting back together now or in the near future. Because that’s all done.” I said in a serious tone of voice while looking straight at her eyes.

She started to get furious. Her face looked like it was about to melt. She was speechless for a couple of seconds before finally storming out of my face.

Finally, hopefully, no more girl problems for the rest of the night. I think I’d just head into the woods, and she gave me a headache. I need to cool myself off again before I sleep.

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Finally, she’s gone, I can have my peace, in just one day, everybody managed to stress me out to the point that I was considering living in the al by myself so that I can just enjoy the peace and quiet that can only be found there. This day has been an absolute disaster for me, we didn’t finish ahead of schedule, and they all managed to screw up their jobs, each and one of them. I thought I could actually count on the staff I chose this time since I knew their capabilities and limitations.

Ugh! Just a wonderful day, so much failure, and too little success. Hopefully, in the morning, we’ll be able to get off to a great start. Otherwise, I might have to start making some changes around here regarding the staff working with me. I can’t afford any setbacks right now since the Annual pack gathering is almost near. I don’t think that I should be the one stressing about this in the middle of the night.

I’m just the host, and I’m supposed to be representing the Annual Pack Gathering. I’m not the one who’s supposed to be making all of these decisions, and I’m not the one who’s supposed to be in charge of the preparations of the Annual Pack Gathering. That should’ve been someone else’s job, not mine.

But I can’t really complain right now, and I already put in so much work and effort into this. I might as well see it through to the end so that I can actually pat myself on the back for a job well done when everything is said and done.

But for now, I think I’ll just head into the woods. Take a short run, maybe another stroll, and get back here so I can get some shut-eye for tonight. The breeze was still cold, which makes me sleepy at times. Although the starry night sky from earlier disappeared, it’s all just pitched black up there.

I wondered what happened to the stars, and it was really a sight to behold.

I was just going to take a short stroll and nothing else. You need the rest, Grant, and I’m pretty sure you’ve earned it.

While I was finally near the entrance of the woods, I sensed someone else was in there. I didn’t know who, but I wasn’t going to stick around to find out. I just went in by myself, transformed into my wolf form, and just took a stroll and even ran. Running usually calms me down, especially in great conditions like this one. The cold breeze wasn’t making me sleepy anymore. Instead, it was cooling me down while I ran.

The foliage and the scenery were making me calm as well, especially the moonlight shining over me. It was just the perfect time to run, no one else to interrupt me, no girls to complain or chase me. I was finally all alone, and I was in a state of peace where I finally achieved freedom. I wasn’t scared, and I wasn’t holding back. I just ran and ran until I felt like stopping.

These were the kind of places that would make me feel like myself, no one else to tell me what to do with my life. I can run at my own pace in places like this, and I don’t have to slow down or try to catch up to anyone.

Another half an hour or so had passed after I went out again, I could feel my energy-draining, but I could also feel it recharge much faster. I couldn’t make up my mind if I was going to go back home to rest or just stay here all night and run around like a mad lad.