Ex-Husband's Regret

Chapter 0394

"Why the hell did I let you convince me to go out for lunch?" I grumbled as I watched the landscape flash by us.

It's been a long time since I've been outside our family estate. I think the last time I was outside was when I attended Ava's wedding. To be honest, I'd been shocked when she invited me. Of all the people, I thought I would be the last person she would want at her wedding.

"Because you needed to get outside," Molly replied, pulling me back to the conversation.

"I do leave the house, Molly," I said, defending myself.

Her scoff irritates me so much.

"Going to the garden doesn't count as going out," she retorted. "Now, stop complaining and just sit back and relax. You'll enjoy this small outing; I promise you that.

"I doubt that."

With that, I lean back against the chair and close my eyes. My mind was racing a thousand thoughts per minute. I couldn't grasp them or control them.

Since my talk with Molly in my room, my mind has been racing with ideas. I know it won't be easy but she's right, I can sit in my room, wallowing and cursing my stupidity. If I continue like that, I may never get the chance to have my son with me.

My biggest challenge, though, is Calvin.

Gunner is still young and I believe I can get him to forgive me. I really want him to forgive me. I want to have a relationship with him. It's not too late. The problem is Calvin. I know he won't easily forgive me nor will he let me near our son.

Sighing for the hundredth time today, I try to focus on something else. It doesn't help because my mind keeps going back to Gunner and Calvin.

"We are here," Molly beams, her excitement evident.

The door opens, and my driver helps us out. I look around, realizing that the entire ride I've thought about nothing else except Gunner.

"I'm so excited; I've been dying to try this place out," she gushed next to me.

I recognized the restaurant immediately. It's been years since I've been here. This was the same restaurant Rowan brought me to when I came back. This is the same restaurant where he almost broke my hand after he witnessed Ava and Ethan. Damn, it feels like a millennium ago.

A small laugh leaves my mouth before I can contain it.

"What's funny?" Molly asks curiously.

I tell her everything as we walk inside. When I'm done, we've already been seated and given our menus.

"That's wild," Molly says after I'm done.

"I know, but I was so stupid. I saw the signs and ignored them. They were married for nine years before came back, Why the hell did I think that nothing had changed between them? It was stupid to think that Rowan hadn't developed feelings for Ava in the years they were together."

"I don't think you were stupid; you were just blinded by a love that had died years ago,” she said sympathetically.

I wanted to argue with her but I didn't. There was no sugarcoating my stupidity. I'm the perfect example of how even the best of lawyers can be stupid'

Her eyes flash as she gives me one of her intense looks.

"What?" I asked nervously.

Something was working in that brilliant brain of hers, and I was afraid of what she would conclude.

"Nothing, just wondering if the same thing happened with you," she answered after a while.

"What are you talking about?"

"You said that you should have known that there is no way Rowan wouldn't have developed feelings for Ava seeing they were together for years and I was wondering if the same thing applied to you and Calvin. After all, he's the only man you've ever been with."

I freeze in my seat when her statement registers in my head... but then I scoff internally and relax.

"You're wrong. It was only sex between us. Yes, he had feelings for me, but they weren't reciprocated."

"Are you sure about that? Then how come he's the only one you had sex? You had multiple opportunities and had men vying for your attention. Big shot lawyers, actors, hell even billionaires, but you never pai any of them attention. You always went back to Calvin."

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"You know what I think?" she asks, her smile transforming into a grin. "I think the same thing that happened to Rowan happened to you. The same reasoning you used applies to you, Emma. There is no way you would sleep with the same man more than seven years and not develop feelings for him. And like with Rowan, your feelings for Calvin were clouded by the love you had for your ex. A love that you both held on to because none of you got closure," she finished

We order and eat our lunch in silence, but her words keep ringing in my head. She was wrong, though; there's just no way I would have developed feelings for Calvin and not be able to notice, right? Molly is wrong. She had to be wrong.