Always Been You

“An ex who is an investor and you didn’t even bother to tell me about it. What exactly do you take me for? You know what, I blame myself for this. I shouldn’t have come here in the first place. I’m leaving. Maybe there is another lady outside your door waiting for me to leave” Katherine said.

“Come on, baby. Listen to me” Jensen said.

“Baby?” Katherine repeated. “Don’t Jensen. Don’t baby me right now”

“Will you please just listen to me?” he asked.

“No I won’t” Katherine said, and please don’t even try to make me. I do not want to cause a scene here at your office. So if you want to talk, you can just come home or you can stay here and ‘work’ if you want. It’s your choice, Jensen. As always ”

And before he could say anything else, she was out of his office and rushing down to her car

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“What you saw means nothing?” Jensen said that night after he got home. He knew he was wrong and he understood why she was angry but he had to try to make her understand.

Katherine turned to him. “I don’t want to yell,” she said. “I just put Deanie to bed in her room and I don’t want her to wake up. There is actually no need for you to explain anymore, Jensen. I honestly don’t care”

“But I want to explain,” Jensen said.

“And I said I don’t care,” Katherine said, then she wrapped her hands around herself. “You are suddenly home early today because you want to explain why your ex was giving you a massage in your office. Why would you go into partnership with her and not even tell me about it? Why was she so bold enough to flirt with you right in front of me? God knows what happens when I’m not even there ”

Jensen closed the distance that separated them and grabbed her shoulders.”Nothing Kat” he said. “Nothing like that has ever happened before. Baby, I need you to believe me. I know things haven’t been great between us lately, but I love you and I would never hurt you that way. As for not telling you about the partnership, that was a very stupid thing to do. I wanted to tell you though. That night Tim came home late, I wanted to tell you, but we got into this big fight and I know that’s not even enough of an excuse and so I’m sorry. I was just really okay with it and I thought you would be too because what ever happened between Shay and I happened a long time ago and I am completely over it ”

“Well obviously she isn’t,” Katherine said.

“Kat, Baby, look at me,” Jensen said. “Do you trust me?”

Katherine stared at him. She trusted him. She knew she did. But it was Shay she didn’t trust. She didn’t tell him that though.

“Of course I trust you, Jensen,” she said softly. “But it doesn’t mean that I’m okay with.. With that I saw. I’m still really hurt and I think that maybe we… I just.. I need some time”Contentt bel0ngs to N0ve/lDrâ/ma.O(r)g!

Jensen bit his lower lip and pulled her into his arms. “I’m so sorry, Kat,” he said and kissed the top of her head. “I’m so sorry that I hurt you baby. I’m sorry that I have been such a jerk.”

Katherine sighed. She was angry and sad and confused. And she wanted to get away from him. She needed some space. She wanted to run away, and she wanted to touch him. Because she missed him so much. Missed him coming home and kissing her and the kids goodnight. She missed him making love to her. Missed falling asleep in each other’s arms. Ever since his company started that project, he had become so distant.

She wanted to reach out and run her hand down that lean, muscled chest, but something, some innate wisdom, stopped her. Despite the fact that she must have done that, and much more, in the past, she knew she shouldn’t do it now. No matter how much she wanted to feel the warmth of his skin beneath her hand. Something just felt wrong.

“I know you are still worried, Kat,” he said in a low, sinuous voice, “You don’t have to be. Let it go. I’m all yours. I will always be”

Quite casually he released her only to reach out again and then he took her by the shoulders, drawing her unresisting body towards him.

“I have missed you so much. I know you might not believe me but I have” he said. His voice was rough, and his mouth covered hers with a sudden force that left her shocked, stunned, paralyzed.

He held her in an unbreakable grip as he caught her chin in his hand and continued to kiss her, with slow, contemptuous deliberation, refusing to allow her to escape, until she was a shaking, trembling mass of confused reactions, reactions she was powerless to control.