Chapter 210
Avery’s pov
The pain is almost intolerable but the fear of what may become of this was overpowering. The room felt like it was spinning, the horrible burn in my veins making it all ten times worse.
It was like my soul was being ripped apart little by little.
It was.
I could feel it, the shift happening inside my body. That very body that now felt foreign. I’m trying to focus on Xade’s voice, tried to focus on him that has always been my anchor, however, this time around it feels like I had been sucked into a void.
A cold void I am fighting so desperately to come out of.
It wasn’t just a change of form, it was something more cold, darker, something not me. I could feel it. Foreign.
I could see Xade staring down at me, see the glisten of his eyes. The sadness. The fear. The emotions that also consumed me too. Seeing the crack of his powerful demeanor crack because of me hurt the most.
Xade,” I said again, this time stronger and even though I was in agony, I wanted to comfort him. My nails scrap against the fabric, as they grow longer by the second.
Xade’s eyes locked with mine and seeing those eyes swirl with pain and helplessness broke something inside me.
“I’m here baby,” he promises, his eyes shining with love. ” I’m right here,” his voice trembles, the emotions portraying in them even more. He was trying so hard to stay calm for me but I could see it slipping.
The terror and helplessness was there.
“I don’t,” my voice shook and I swallowed hard. I am terrified to even place my hand on my belly, scared that I would scratch my tummy and hurt our baby.
“I don’t want to lose myself,” I admitted, my voice breaking just thinking about losing my human side. How would I even be if it happened?
I could not imagine it.
The idea of not being me was terrifying.
The words hung in the air, heavy with fear. It was almost like a dark huge cloud hovering above us all.
Xade’s face crumpled, see the crack in his strong exterior and he fights to regain his composure. ” You won’t baby,” his words were firm despite the fear lingering in the tone. “I won’t let that happen.”
His words were supposed to comfort me. And they did, a little bit. But I can also see the uncertainty in his eyes, the way it swirls in his eyes as the terror of knowing not even he can protect me from this.
It was the same dread I felt, the same we shared.
The pain was becoming more unbearable, coursing through my body painfully like a whip of leather on skin, only that it was inside my skin and not above.
I could feel every muscle tense and tighten, every nerve screaming in protest at the weird change.
My nails, stretch out, tearing through the fabric beneath me and Xade’s eyes flicker with panic. “We need to get you to the infirmary right now,” he looks behind him. “Everyone get out!”ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .