Chapter 17
Arielle woke up with a start, it took a while to remember where she was and the event of the previous day played roughly in her head, she frowned when she remembered all that had happened since Luciano left her house, the house she also left and never looked back, not as she missed it, she got off the bed and checked the time, she needed to meet with a buyer whom she was able to speak to the previous evening but there was still time until the person arrived.
Arielle didn’t have any plans as to what she would do once she has sold the things Luciano bought for her but one thing she knows is that she wasn’t going to be in the state neither was she going to be at a party with the demon of a man, a handsome demon.
“Cut it out, he is not admirable, he wants you to be his slave,”From NôvelDrama.Org.
Arielle scolded herself.
There wasn’t much she could do until she successfully sold off the things she had with her which will provide the funds with which she plans on leaving Russia for good and never come back, yes, she was never going to return, the country of her birth has brought nothing but a sad pathetic memories for her, she couldn’t recur any good times in her two-decade plus years alive, maybe she would have a chance somewhere new and far from here, but where that would be, she had no idea yet.
The fact that she had no friend or anyone she could talk to made everything even sadder, she had a friend once upon a time, yes Becca was barely her friend but they got along, everything changed when Becca went to the US to study when she had visited Moscow during her break, she had ended whatever friendship they had by telling Arielle that she was above her and that she can not be friends with a local girl giving her international status, not just that though, Becca’s older sister had hit a jackpot when she married into one of the wealthiest family in Moscow, automatically elevating her family status from average to part of the upper class, it hurt when Becca had told her those things and that was the first time in her life when she had considered yielding to her mother’s crazy ideas but she had changed her mind real quick before she had told her mom.
Now that she was in this situation, she couldn’t help but think it would have been better if she had listened to her mom and gone into modeling like she had said, maybe they wouldn’t have had to sell her off, it was great her fault too, if only she had done as she was told, maybe she would have met someone rich too through working as a model and would have married someone rich and loving, or maybe she would have become famous and known, maybe she would have helped her mom achieve her dreams and maybe then, her mom would have come to love her, it was all her fault for not listening to her mom, it was her fault for been born, if only she hadn’t been born, then maybe her mom would have been happier, her existence was what made her mom’s life misterable, so maybe she didn’t need to blame her mom for choosing to get rid of her now, maybe this was her fate and she should just accept it and go back home and do whatever it is that her new owner wanted her to do.
“You are out of your goddamn mind Arielle,”
She yelled at herself, no way was she having those crazy thoughts.
“It’s not my fault, it has never been my fault, I didn’t choose to be born, I’m a victim in all of this, I can’t start blaming myself for shits that I didn’t do.”
She cried to herself, she hated that she was having these thoughts and blaming herself, it was her mother’s fault for choosing to have unprotected sex while knowing she didn’t want a child, it was her fault for not getting an abortion, according to her mom, she had tried to get it but her dad had talked her out of it, Arielle didn’t believe that was the case because it was clear her dad hadn’t wanted her, if he did, he would have been part of her life, maybe her mom had wanted to pin him down with a child and got pregnant with her only to be slapped with reality after she was born, and her way of getting revenge was this, it sucks but that seems to be the case and now it was left to her to decide on what cause her life will take and she has chosen to not be owned, not when it wasn’t what she wanted.
Arielle checked the time and decided to take a bath and head out of the motel, she walked into the small bathroom in the room and took her bath, it didn’t take long for her to get dressed and she picked up the stuff she had to sell and checked out of the motel, she knew she wasn’t going to come back here and she honestly didn’t want to. instead of taking a cab, she decided to walk the thirty minutes trip that would have been five or ten minutes with a cab, there was still time and she saved money that way, it was pretty cold outside but she didn’t let that stop her, for all she knows, Luciano might already know she was missing and might be looking for already, the thought of that added speed to her legs and she was at the shop in no time but the buyer wasn’t there, she tried calling her with the public line but she didn’t pick up, Arielle’s heart leaped in fear, she never thought of the possibility of the buyer backing out and never made a plan B on how she would sell off the stuff, she tried calling again, hoping to heaven that she picks up but still she didn’t.
Arielle bite down hard on her lips trying to suppress the tears that were threatening to break lose, this wasn’t the time to cry, it was time to act and act fast because she was running out of time already, she should have had other plans, she would have left the motel earlier, she was a fool for being so trusting, she hurriedly left the shop and went to another, asking in her local language if she was interested in buying a dress and some jewries but she got a no from her and all the shops she visited in the area and with each, no she got, she started to lose hope, and she had no one to blame but herself.